Reality check?

Just ignore the smoke and smile

I have 3 exams to go. Victorious end? Not quite yet. I have to admit I was close to biting my toe when I was walking back from town today, to get a grip on myself with the overflowing joy of actually being only a few steps away from that very light in the end of the tunnel.
I'm amazed by things surrounding me, so much beauty, so much mystery. This morning, walking to my Biology exam with Juulia, we were literally struggling through a blizzard. By the time the first exam had ended, it was sunny outside. After the second exam, it was gray, windy, and somewhat rainyish. In half an hour, it was again sunshine all over, with a sharp, cutting north wind kissing you so brutally on your cheek, the way it always does.
I like the new freshness, I missed it this spring, I'm afraid.. with all this exam-stressing. One cannot fully dedicate to two things at the time, no matter how much they try and persuade that women can multi-task.. I just can't live a normal life, and ace my exams. Maybe it comes down to my inability..
But yes, the freshness. I dig, I dig. You dig me up from under what is covering, the better part of me, sings Brandon. So true, so good. I revel and relish this new sweet taste. It is like the most delicious aperitif to the exquisite main course in store for me for the future. I'm such an epicure of life.

Photo hunt / Fotojaht

This week's photo hunting theme is "signs".
Here is the original post, where you can also track down the rules and other nice stuff.




We all know the French are slightly special in their own way, but this, I reckon, is the best evidence of the cruel Parisienne humor with stupid naive tourists:).. The picture is taken on my second trip to that city I've fallen in love with. I know exactly where to go.

2 down, 13 to go.

Just now I got rid of my horrendous headache. I believe I got it from the overwhelming joy and excitement that unleashed when I got my two first final exams done. 13 more, and I'm at peace with the universe. Sounds reasonable? Actually I really am happy, because I've been waiting for this stuff to come up for ummmbgh, well if not 12 years altogether, then for the last 2 years definitely. With great anxiousness. I hope I prepared myself well enough, and if not, then at this point, there's not much I can do any more. I'll be fine, I know, though. It's a nice comforting idea. However, those occasional spurts of angst with the whole fatalistic touch these exams have attached to them, do take over. What can you do?

I would really-really want to take off with someone interesting and good and chill on the beach of a tropical island, remote from everything daily, dull, and worrying. Far away from all that just doesn't feel like it should be in the moment. I want new vibes, refreshing and pleasant.
You, come and make my day. Bring new colours, new touch, new feeling, new scent, new perspective, new meaning and value, new purpose, motivation, need, lust, adrenaline, safety, warmth, joy, experience, ideas.. The old has drained my resources, I'm thirsty for new.
I just cannot go on clinging on to the past, barely holding on. The past is pushing me away quite persistently.
A new breeze, blow me away, intoxicate so sweetly, the way you always do. Be my camouflage from reality:).