All the same.

Today I woke up and I was seriously so abashed by the scene seen from my window. It was snowy and snowing outside. WTF, mates? Global warming my ass! And more towards the day, it was nice and sunny, but when we got out of school, it was gray and cold and windy again and it was hailing. I don't get it. Something is very wrong. Something is/was very wrong with my mood as well. There's something bringing me down, but I'm not very sure about what it could be. At least I'm not in denial about my mood-swings.
I still haven't got used with my new lighter hair. It freaks me out each time I see my reflection in the mirror.
Oh, haha. Today during lunch, I had the cutest and most embrassing moment with JP. He was sitting right across the dining hall from me and we were keeping eye-contact while eating. And of course, I'm the most horrible eater in the world, or at least in Finland... And it was so cool, because he doesn't seem to be the smoothest eater either, at least when someone is watching. So we both had quite a good laugh, at each other. I don't really understand this guy, though. But I cannot be bothered to really go deep into the topic and try to figure out the details. It's all the same. I wonder what's up with all the guys in our school wearing the exact same jeans, by the way?
This confusing guy still confuses me, and I'm not sure if it's in the positive way. I think we have the kind of love-hate relationship. Go figure..

And casually, it is totally normal to have a discussion over me wearing (red) leather underwear or not. :D This is what you get in our ToK lessons. And of course, fucking frozen chicken and then cooking it. Gotta love IB:D. We're all a bunch of perverts, I love it!

I realised I use big words a lot, grand words. But I'm not sure if it's a bad thing neccessarily..
Maybe it's just in order to try to impart the message in a stronger mean.

At least we dig each other.

I love home.
I love my friends. (The Ones know it perfectly well and other people are just cool:)
I love my quality time at home with my precious friends.
I love alcohol consumed in right amounts.
I love music so very much.
I love other mind-altering substances and moments.
I love enjoying it all.
I love emotions.
The list is to be continued.

I'm listening to Nelly Furtado - Say It Right(8) at the moment. Strange how drifted away from pop music I used to be, but ms Furtado I dig a lot. The song is rather alternative-pop, when trying to squeeze a piece of music into some frames (which is so extremely wrong to do, actually). Anyhow, I was just now thinking about the emotions the song gives me. It's a good song, but still it in a way depresses me. Strange. But it's not the bad kind of depression. I haven't even ever thought about the message ms Furtado is trying to address to us with it. So, go figure. But this is not what I came here to talk about. It was just a random drifting away of my mind. Should snap out of it.

My long weekend in Estonia has been so wonderful. I have to admit I seldom enjoy Finland that much. In Finland only short instances are as enjoyable as this whole time here has been for me now. I wonder what causes it.. I'm not saying I wouldn't like it in Finland, but it's just so friggin different. In a good way? (My cat just had the biggest eyes I've ever seen:D it was totally "8" face:D, nice.)

I'm shivering. I hope I didn't catch a cold, because I've managed to preserve my good health through the whole winter. Would suck to get sick now, just before my exams. I should probably go take a hot bath and go to bed... I don't know. It's all so strange. I'm confused. I'm happy and not so happy at the same time. HOW EMO CAN YOU GET:D?! A split personality. I don't think I should even bother to understand those schemes hovering through my head... Hopeless case, I guess.

I would so do Jude Law. I so would! I would do lots of things. I would like to do lots of things. The more, the better:D (and please, this time I'm NOT implying anything dirty).
But I do even sometimes amuse myself, with how dirty and gross and corrupt my mind can be. All those nasty little details keep amusing me, and I'm sure someone is going to send me to an anti-dirty-treatment soon. At least it's all fun.

I'm gonna go take a hot bath now (sorry, jacuzzi;)).

And if someone feels like it, I'm giving out FREE HUGS:)! Positiveness is always good and it's such a nice way of saying "it's all good, someone cares". And even if caring is not included, it's cute and warm (practical purposes included as a bonus). Kids, hug more:)! Hugs are good.

5 weeks and I'm off to San Francisco! How cool is that.