You, my mental masochism
Invade my consciousness
Leave me once more
With subtle and implicit tone
Never straightforward
Never true
Never anything you made me believe
I was always the blindfold for pain
I still am?
We are [were] stuck in a lose-lose loop
With both left empty-hearted
and broken.
Illusions never heal wounds
It still burns [burned] like before
The only difference being the
awareness of this self-deception,
an emotional fraud I once
believed and reveled in.
Naivety swapped with bitterness.
Bitterness swapped with retaliation.
Retaliation swapped with despair.
You should know.
Actually this is something I once wrote in not that nice state of being. Right now life is good apart from the bronchitis I have.
I'm holding the aces. I always win. (Wishful thinking.)
You know, being a complete bitch is one of the most imbecile-proof self-defence mechanisms. For both the ego and physis.
Great people and even better times!