On the verge of...

What's the use of feet if you haven't got legs?

[Telefon Tel Avin - john thomas on the inside is nothing but foam
Telefon Tel Avin - lotus above water(8)]

Today I read the whole day. I feel insipid. Insipid, but with a slight drop of hope that I might even pass my exams. Might.

Sometimes I'm wondering why on earth do I even write here. What's the use? A good cause? Where? To whom?

Kids, listen to good idm!

Your face reminds me of when I was old..

I remember the future!

"To be to somebody the cause of sufferings and joys, without having any right to it - is this not the sweetest possible nourishment for our pride?" /M.Lermontov, A Hero of our Time/

Isn't this one of those nasty truths that our poor minds so eagerly delight, yet so seldom dare to admit? We are obtruded by the moral and ethical normatives dictated by a recondite societal brainwash-system. Trying so phreneticly to differentiate ourselves from the rest of the gray masses, we just make up the very same one little particle in the big substance, trying to swim upstream.
So, what takes us/them/me/you down?

Or what do we really aspire for?

It's just one of those pseudo-philosophical wannabe moments of mine. To be taken with a hint of jest.
[St.Germain - So Flute]

My head feels like a frisbee.

I just hate it sometimes when things budge away from their normal axis and then nothing's right any more. For example, circardian rythms are something that can very easily be altered, even unintentionally. Even a little factor like having an exam the next day can just f*ck you up the following day. I suffered from mediocre insomnia last night. This morning I was just semi-dead. When I got back from town, in the afternoon, I fell asleep. Now it's 00:15 and I feel no fatigue whatsoever! It's kind of fascinating yet imbecile how easily human beings can be manipulated by.. something. And here's a fun fact: when I tried to enjoy sauna earlier, I could stay there for a few minutes only, because I got a brutal epistaxis (don't even ask me why I know this posh word for a nosebleed:D). Anyhow, this is some boring stuff.
Well, not that I would have anything too relevant to say anyways. My summer holiday starts in 5 days pretty much. This is rather pleasant.
I bought myself a cool new belt today, probably one of the coolest belts I've ever stumbled upon. It's men's. :D Krhm.
I'm going to read some Doctor Zhivago or some school stuff in order to get sleepy. I wonder if it's going to work..
[Jaga Jazzist - I have a ghost, now what?]

When everything else is gone.

I'm so fucking blank right now. And still I'm obliged to write my Psychology exam tomorrow. I've just produced 13 (hic!) pages of conspect and ... I don't think I know anything. Blank. Empty. Meaningless. Inaccessible. Blunt. Overproduced. Inefficient. Irrational. Senseless.
Yet there's hope. One week to go and I've put an end to it, for now.
[Bonobo - Sleepy Seven]

En fågel i handen är bättre än tio i skogen.

I feel sort of guilty for not having written anything relevant here for ages. This entry is no better either. My summer break starts in 10 days, basically. Within these 10 days I have to survive 4 mock exams, English WL essay and Math porfolio. Yay. I hope you can just feel the immeasurable excitement of mine.
It has been fairly intense latterly. I pretty much hate myself for procrastinating with everything I have to do, but I guess working under heaps of stress is the only way I can actually get anything done. Sucks to be me, but apparently we all have our own ways of floating our boats, yes?
Klute - Ambient Hell (8)
Amazing to think that in two weeks exactly I'm going to be on my way to SF... Mindblowing! Of course, the flight there is rather bitch, because it's about 14h, if I remember right. I am definitely going to be bedsore after this. You know, I have my blogger thingie here in Finnish and for the love of god, it does not sound/look/feel good at all. Why can't they just keep it simple and English? Speaking of English and Finnish languages... I'm turning finglish. My linguistic breakdowns are not even funny any more! It scares the hell out of my bum each time, but I mean... it's not normal for me to go speak Finnish to my English-speaking friends. Crazy stuff.
The stuff going on in Tallinn is not nice at all. I hope it will (c)ease soon.

My Winamp just went nuts. I should try to crawl into bed also. I drank too much of that heavenly Nepali tea earlier. Surprising how good an unflavoured simple black tea can taste. Oh and my mum also came back from Belgium and she brought me the best chocolate pralinés ever. Oh man, I've been (involuntarily) dieting for too long now. Happy days! Food!
I love food.

By the way, all plots and schemes seem to be untangling now, eventually. I guess it's a good thing. But you never know, you know. Those sneaky things sometimes just get you without you even noticing. And this is what I call a sticky situation.
Bee Gees - How Deep Is Your Love (8) (I don't even want to recall the version Aleksi sang:D... 'how deep is your ....') it's a cool song, though. It was cool singing it in the grocery with him. Nanananaaaa...

Okay, when one does not have anything functional to say, one should shut the f*ck up. Hence, I shall precipitate to the fortuitous oblivion discharge dormant stage that our lives provide us with. Not to sound sophisticated or anything.
Klute - Part of Me(8)

All the same.

Today I woke up and I was seriously so abashed by the scene seen from my window. It was snowy and snowing outside. WTF, mates? Global warming my ass! And more towards the day, it was nice and sunny, but when we got out of school, it was gray and cold and windy again and it was hailing. I don't get it. Something is very wrong. Something is/was very wrong with my mood as well. There's something bringing me down, but I'm not very sure about what it could be. At least I'm not in denial about my mood-swings.
I still haven't got used with my new lighter hair. It freaks me out each time I see my reflection in the mirror.
Oh, haha. Today during lunch, I had the cutest and most embrassing moment with JP. He was sitting right across the dining hall from me and we were keeping eye-contact while eating. And of course, I'm the most horrible eater in the world, or at least in Finland... And it was so cool, because he doesn't seem to be the smoothest eater either, at least when someone is watching. So we both had quite a good laugh, at each other. I don't really understand this guy, though. But I cannot be bothered to really go deep into the topic and try to figure out the details. It's all the same. I wonder what's up with all the guys in our school wearing the exact same jeans, by the way?
This confusing guy still confuses me, and I'm not sure if it's in the positive way. I think we have the kind of love-hate relationship. Go figure..

And casually, it is totally normal to have a discussion over me wearing (red) leather underwear or not. :D This is what you get in our ToK lessons. And of course, fucking frozen chicken and then cooking it. Gotta love IB:D. We're all a bunch of perverts, I love it!

I realised I use big words a lot, grand words. But I'm not sure if it's a bad thing neccessarily..
Maybe it's just in order to try to impart the message in a stronger mean.

At least we dig each other.

I love home.
I love my friends. (The Ones know it perfectly well and other people are just cool:)
I love my quality time at home with my precious friends.
I love alcohol consumed in right amounts.
I love music so very much.
I love other mind-altering substances and moments.
I love enjoying it all.
I love emotions.
The list is to be continued.

I'm listening to Nelly Furtado - Say It Right(8) at the moment. Strange how drifted away from pop music I used to be, but ms Furtado I dig a lot. The song is rather alternative-pop, when trying to squeeze a piece of music into some frames (which is so extremely wrong to do, actually). Anyhow, I was just now thinking about the emotions the song gives me. It's a good song, but still it in a way depresses me. Strange. But it's not the bad kind of depression. I haven't even ever thought about the message ms Furtado is trying to address to us with it. So, go figure. But this is not what I came here to talk about. It was just a random drifting away of my mind. Should snap out of it.

My long weekend in Estonia has been so wonderful. I have to admit I seldom enjoy Finland that much. In Finland only short instances are as enjoyable as this whole time here has been for me now. I wonder what causes it.. I'm not saying I wouldn't like it in Finland, but it's just so friggin different. In a good way? (My cat just had the biggest eyes I've ever seen:D it was totally "8" face:D, nice.)

I'm shivering. I hope I didn't catch a cold, because I've managed to preserve my good health through the whole winter. Would suck to get sick now, just before my exams. I should probably go take a hot bath and go to bed... I don't know. It's all so strange. I'm confused. I'm happy and not so happy at the same time. HOW EMO CAN YOU GET:D?! A split personality. I don't think I should even bother to understand those schemes hovering through my head... Hopeless case, I guess.

I would so do Jude Law. I so would! I would do lots of things. I would like to do lots of things. The more, the better:D (and please, this time I'm NOT implying anything dirty).
But I do even sometimes amuse myself, with how dirty and gross and corrupt my mind can be. All those nasty little details keep amusing me, and I'm sure someone is going to send me to an anti-dirty-treatment soon. At least it's all fun.

I'm gonna go take a hot bath now (sorry, jacuzzi;)).

And if someone feels like it, I'm giving out FREE HUGS:)! Positiveness is always good and it's such a nice way of saying "it's all good, someone cares". And even if caring is not included, it's cute and warm (practical purposes included as a bonus). Kids, hug more:)! Hugs are good.

5 weeks and I'm off to San Francisco! How cool is that.

Vernal affairs and hormones in action.

Hello, comrades. Long time no typeu, again. [Forty Foot Echo - Brand New Day(8)]
Lots of things have happened since then. Damn, this song I'm listening to right now, is just so nice, and it reminds me of this one person, who's even more nice.. Anyhow! First we had a dance party in Estonia, in RaMkool.. it was just fabulous! Me and Rain had handled 3 bottles of wine before the party, but it still puzzles me how Rain managed to get so drunk... And I'm the one who drank vodka in town, afterwards... After the prom I went to town to meet up with Raimond and when we were buying booze from near the railway station, I realised I had lost my wallet. Panic. I was going to leave for Paris in two days and my ID-card and all that stuff is there. Eventually it turned out to be all good, because Rain had my wallet in his coat pocket. Tallinn, in general was Party, Party, Party. It was heart-warming seeing all those adorable buddies of mine. However, I managed to consume so many liquid substances with OH-groups in them the other night, that I couldn't pull myself together and hang out with Hando, Mikk, Kostja and others:D I'm almost ashamed.. But hey, sh*t happens:) and even the most experienced ones sometimes screw up. Most of my quality time in Tallinn was spent with Raimond, who is an extremely cool, positive, nice, friendly, adorable, funny, and everything else a-close-to-perfection-male-person could possibly be.
On Monday (19.03) I flew to Paris with my the-coolest-brother-ever. I'm not going to tell any more about Paris that it was awesome despite the fact that weather sucked so bad that it's not even funny. And the reason, why I actually went there - Incubus gig - was cancelled. Bad luck, disappointment was beyond big. But otherwise, j'aime Paris;)! Beaucoup.
[Dagö - Armastuslaul(8)]
But now I'm back in Finland, it's so nice and sunny here. Probably the first time when coming back here didn't flip me away with the extra bad weather, kind of contrary.

It's so nice to see, how more intense sunrays cheer people up and you can see more smiles on people's still-so-pale faces. Speaking of being pale - I got the year's first tan today. I had a few skip hours at school and I was just chillaxing outside and I got a slight blush on my cheeks. Nice (read with a thick Northern England accent).
[Björk - Hyperballad(8)]

The only thing bothering me at the moment is that I'm so darn lazy. I just can't help it. I cannot get my head around things and then I'm just constantly spacing out and daydreaming. I think I k now one of the reasons for this unearthliness, at least. It's this one person approx. 400km away. I have my fingers crossed to be able to see the person when I go to Estonia in a week, again.
Linnu, my dear, is going to turn 17! And Pätu (aka Pärtel) as well.

I love people and jokes. Ahh. I love life:)!

Peace and love. Just take it all in!

Favourite things.

Today was a fabulous day! It was almost as good as it gets. Just awesome!
First thing in the morning, after enjoying my morning tea - the usual, I walked out of my house, and felt the wind stroking my face with a lot softer touch, than usually. It had a vernal smell. The birds were singing their lungs out, and for some strange reason, the morning seemed to be lighter than ever. Met up with Juulia and walked to school with her. I found out in my Mathematics class, that the time I'm going to be in Paris, only Higher Level students have to attend, which means I'm not going to miss out on anything! What a relief - I can enjoy Paris without any guilt what so ever. And the teacher did it all for me, how nice is that! It totally brightened up my day to an extent when I was completely overwhelming with all the sunshine and nice people around me. I was just bursting out laughing and enjoying the sunrays flattering my skin with warmness. After school I was hanging out with Sonia, who is just such a darling. We had a blast in Wayne's Coffee (I love the place, and the place loves me, since I probably am their best customer) first and then we went on to Soppabaari, where I had a delicious tomato-feta pasta. We chilled there until 10pm. When I got home I was just so happy! I still am. I love, LOVE those times when everything is just in the right place, almost..
I wish I could give a piece of my joy to all the world so that everyone would be happy! Or at least discover the positive side of things.
It is so close to perfection right now. Having some more darlings with me here, right now, would make it complete. My honeybunnies (the ones whom I mean, know it;), can't wait to see you!
I'm just so anxious about everything about to happen!
Some people just make your day by simply existing. Mindblowing.
I can imagine the overwhelming feelings in me when I get to see People. Those two weeks of absence has made the heart grow fonder a great deal. Those two weeks have been both the longest and shortest two weeks of all times. I think there's a little something called 'butterflies' in my tummy. Feels great!

Jätteglad:)!
And after I'm back from Paris, there's only 8 weeks of school left for me, and off to San Francisco I go. Can it get any better? It can.

Puss och kram:P

Nightwalker

Mõnikord tundub rohkem, kui üks asi vale. Vahepeal lihtsalt oled kogu maailmas pettunud ilma hea põhjuseta. Aga alati on midagi, mida väga oodata. Nädala pärast ma lähen Pariisi, see on hea.
Ja juba neljapäeval olen ma Eestis!
Mul oleks ilmselt siirust vaja. See ongi puudu. Miks kõik nii silmakirjalikud on?

But still, listen to good music, kids!
Sucks to be nocturnal.

It feels like having a cake and eating it too!

Zenith[10] says:
they didn't fucking ask for my id when i bought them from alko :D lazy bastards
sonia says:
haha they didnt?? but i think you do look adult. i mean if you werent 18 you'd pass for it
sonia says:
i mean you're not OLD
sonia says:
you're mature =DDD
sonia says:
but not mentally

This is what you get for turning 18. :D
Life is crazy. Time flies. In 10 days I'm going to be in Paris. I can't really believe it, after my week in Paris, there is only 8 weeks of school left, and then off to San Francisco!
Hell yeah!
My subconsciousness is playing tricks on me, and it's not even funny!
Anyways, tomorrow, Helsinki, again:)! Rather enjoyable. I love Helsinki!

But the not-so-nice-thing is that I miss Tallinn and my honeybunnies a lot. A big bunch! Damn.

Suits me.

Today was a funny day. I went to school for basically nothing. Okay, we were supposed to have 2 hours of Biology, but today our school-leavers had their last day of school, an event here called "penkkarit". It means that everyone has dressed up as something random (yay, carnival) and people are drinking and fooling around at school. Later they get on huge trucks and drive around in the city and throw candies for people who have come to see the whole spectacle. Oh, the exitement! Since I didn't care that much, I left home pretty early. Our Biology teacher just could not be bothered to keep the lesson. Got some candy and home I went. I accidentally fell asleep reading the book for my Historical Investigation and I also had a minor mental breakdown. I just started crying at one point. Strange. Sometimes I wonder about the things going on in my head. After I had woken up, I called Mikael and we decided to go downhill skiing. My first proper time, basically. I loved it. Nik joined us later, too. I think downhill skiing is my new love, however, right now I'm such a n00b..
I feel so relaxed now, and I should go to sauna. To make the relaxation even more complete.
No school tomorrow either, and I didn't go yesterday either. I could get used to this!

Queremos paz, muchacha!

Estou em disposição bossa-nova hoje. Aunque, esto estuvo en portugese, porque la bossa-nova viene de Brasil. Estoy en el modo bossa-nuovo hoy. Yo no he escrito en español desde... mucho tiempo. Pero no creo que me entiendes ahora. No quiero todavía estar vieja! No quiero trabajar ni tener responsabilidades. Permancener pequeña y fácil. No puedo, desgraciadamente.
¿Qué tal, mis amigos amables? No soy loca, pero mi futuro es oscuro, yo lo se precisamente. Adiós, español, un rato..
¡Ríase más!

What does your soul look like?

Today was a good day. A good and a pointless day. Sometimes you just have to do nothing relevant, but yet so genuine. I updated my gallery on deviantART (http://lendur.deviantart.com) and talked to some good people online. I also read for my English mock exams tomorrow, but not too much to feel comfortable about the literary criticism we have to write. It's so bitch cold here that I left my apartment only for 5 minutes today, I was semi-outside, on my balcony. But it was beautiful, because the sun seems to shine more vernally than ever before. Even though it is more than 30 minus degrees (Celcius, kids) outside.
I'll be good.
Soon.
In 60767 seconds. Or better make it 60768. And I love eating ice-cream with this weather. I do. Go figure!

Don't forget where the heart is.

Well howdy, my comrades. How's life down there? Over a rather long period of time I could be bothered to pull my little, but over-working brain cells together and drag my little cursor on the 'Blogger' thing and write a passage here. Isn't that just marvellous? Today was an-okay-day, when it comes to waking up half past eight and being all well reposed. I did, indeed, do that, albeit I have been experiencing oddly strange dreams lately. But when it comes to all the other elements of one's day, it was a-shitty-ass-day. I don't know. Everything seems to be jolly good, but there's still some kind of an unease in my head. Being too demanding might be one wherefore... but still! I mean. My weekend was splendid. I spent almost the whole day on Friday on Laajavuori, snowboarding (now almost every inch of my body is sore and muscle cells filled with lactic acid, but it does not devastate me) . In the beginning of the day, it was nice and powdery and it was snowing like hell. Towards the end of the day, it got warmer and eventually the snow got sticky and wet (though it was -3'C). But I did enjoy the good company offered by Emmi, Heidi (they left a bit earlier), Nik and Mikael. Those fellows of mine are extra up-in-grade-people.
Saturday was even more decent. The morning was just the most perfect winter-wonderland weather. The sun was shining and the nature seemed to be extremely happy. Even some vernal bird songs caught my ear. [St.Germain - So Flute, (8)] Thus, I decided it is a stalemate to not exit this oppressive indoor construction and take a walk on the wildside. I lured Juulia to come with me, even though she had apparently woken up pretty recently. Anyhow, we did not manage to walk too far, we went on the lake of ours (yes, kids, we own the world) and just sat there in the snow. And rolled around in the snow. And of course, we were wondering about the world being so wonderful and full of joy. The usual taking-all-the-beauty-of-life-in-moments. Gotta love those. Afterwards we came to my place and had some hot chocolate with cookies. And we also sat in the sauna with clothes and cracked up over almost everything - the usual IQ-depletion, when it comes to us two. A while after Juulia had left, Emmi came to my place, since my mum was supposed to give us all a ride to Vaajakoski, where we had sold our souls to Matti and promised to help at this one party. No-one of us really knew what was the theme of the party or anything. Then Nik came, too. And Juulia. And then we went to Vaajakoski. When we got off the car, I saw this one really handsome-looking lad. A punk-rock-ass-boyo. I was all bewitched, as a silly young lady would be. I remember having a dialogue with Juulia that it would be cool if that guy came to our party. Oh, by the way, by then we had found out that what we are dealing with, is a hiphop event. Underground stuff - rappers and breakers and everything like that. In a way it arose suspicion, since I don't really fancy hiphop that much. Gotta say, my attitude towards this sub-culture rose a great deal. Much respect, from now on. This mainstream blingbling thing is just corrupting the idea of raw, pure and professional underground hiphop. Not that I would start living a hiphop gansta life now, but I just reduced my ignorance and grew respect. That's nice, isn't it. [Björk - Pagan Poetry(8)]
The funny thing is that the hot guy actually came there. He did not seem to be the kind of person who would show up at an event like this. Me and Juulia were working at the wardrobe, so we had a nice overview of people coming and going. Whereas people were not allowed to have their bags inside, there was always some turmoil at the 'narikka'. Everyone had to come get cigarettes and some drinks and so on. So the hot lad came to his bag rather often, too. I dared to bum a cigarette from him and he said that he would give me one in change of my phone number. This is kind of cool, because this contradicts my conclusion made on Finnish people last weekend. I was so sure there had to be a catch. But it seems that there was none. We talked a bit and chatting with him made him only more attractive to me, since he appeared to be a nice person as well. I became friends with a very nice young lady, named Emilia, too. She was a friend of Timo's (the guy who asked for my number). That's spunky too, I love new acquaintances! Concludingly, I had a nice Saturday evening, even though I was more than exhausted from hard work. But I guess it was worth it, since we got CAS (=slavery for the IBO, additional to brainwash) and stuff.
On Sunday I cleaned my room thoroughly. Feels so nice now when everything is at its right place and no dust obstructing my nostrils any more when digging into some stuff under my desk. And I went to practise, which is always a nice thing to do, even when lacking energy. By the way, I strongly suspect my favourite coach being pregnant..
AND despite all that, I felt so weird at school today! I realised I miss Estonia a great deal. I miss my honeybunnies. I miss my cat. I miss my brother and daddy. I cannot wait those two weeks to be over and enjoy my winter break. Maybe I'm suffering from something they diagnose to be winter-depression? Cannot be. Maybe I just need to get laid? That always seems to help. But one sure thing is that I really miss some closeness and warmth. This is why I need to get to Estonia as quickly as possible, because my heart-warmers in majority are there! Oh my, I miss you!
I guess I just had to take this evening off, today and write this epic passage here. I couldn't be bothered to go to practise and I'm just listening to good music now. I should start doing some Biology homework. I think my theacher has gone nuts, since he gave us SO MUCH to do. And the topic we are dealing with, at the moment, is so darn boring. Plant science. Argh. I have this really nice picture of a leaf on as my wallpaper (on my pc), and earlier turning on my computer was so strange, because now I know to name all the little parts and details of this little leaf. It takes all the fun away, in a sense.. Okay, I'm not making any sense whatsoever any more, so I'll finish now. I really hope I can pull my positivity together again and get a grip on myself. Grip needed.
And world, please, DO behave.
Oh, and kids, listen to good music. Anything good goes. I'm on the jazzy wavelenght just now. And underground (+instrumental) hiphop is surprisingly good. Don't be reserved with new things. It's so mind-blowing how cool some totally new extremes might turn out to be.

Sometimes I wonder. But otherwise, life is good, stop global warming and love your friends and family. And do not forget to show and tell them how precious they are. It's good to hear nice words every now and then, brightens up the dullness. For real;)!

Cheers.
It does feel a bit nicer now. More bearable at least.
[Incubus - Pardon Me, acoustic (8)]

It's all so iffy!

Well, howdy, mates. Felt like writing in English tonight. It's so strange to cognitively realise those little things every now and then. Even when they are minor aspects of life, they keep freaking me out so bad! Seriously, what's up with that?! With every little piece of knowledge I obtain there grows a need for more. Everlasting consumer society relflects here, perhaps (and here I just have to mention that I purchased this very nice scarf today, even though I didn't have a desperate need for that and it was just a beautiful accessory. "Diamonds are a girl's best friends";))? It is like getting stuck in and endless circle of questions. The more you know, the more you want to know. I know that I don't know a thing. But I guess the important part is, that I want to know. I NEED to know. I had this very inspiring conversation with my mum's friend, who is also a lecturer at the University of Tartu and she paid us a visit today. An incredible lady she is. She is such a bohemian, yet so much on the ground with her feet. She managed to inspire me into deeper research in the questions that have been puzzling me recently. I just realised that I have to try to retain my curiosity. This is what keeps the circle going. I find it rather captivating. What a marvellous amount of information to acquire there is - impenetrable!
By the way, you people, who think Finnish and Estonian folks are alike, you might want to think again! A culture shock, perhaps let's put it that way, hit me. Can you imagine - no such thing as friendship between a male and a female exists without any implications. It just doesn't happen here. There's always a catch. And not to mention that when one happens to walk up to a stranger in the street to just talk to them... It's almost inappropriate. They do, sometimes, do it. But this sometimes is when ... they're drunk. Go figure! I thought I was weird. Not implying anything, though. Man, this world has some twisted ways of functioning. And you know what's random? My Biology teacher speaks Estonian to me every now and then. That's kind of scary.

To be drunk while young and fresh. Oy!

Meelerahu is the ultimate state of being.

Täna oli hea päev, sest (mõned põhjused):
*ilus jaanuarikuune talveilm (päike ja suurematsorti miinuskraadid)
*üle pikema aja sai heade inimestega rääkida (Piret, Hando, Linnu <3)
*Soniaga Coffee House'is oli liiga lahe
*purjus Nik, Ida ja Mikael tulid külla ja nii lahe oli jaurata
*JP lisas mind endale msni:)!!! !!! !!! See on liiga hullult lahe.
*mul on rahustava mõjuga tablett sees
* ...

It's the little things that make the world! Aga üle pika aja on tõesti mõnus olla. Life has its ups and downs and one just has to take more than maximum out of those ups to survive the downs.

All-zen!

Good girl!

Ma suutsin eile trennis oma väikese sõrme jätta 5kg kaaluva ketta alla ja nüüd on seal mõrakene. Hästi tehtud, kas pole. See on nõme, sest ma ei saa korralikult trükkida (kirjavigu tuleb palju) ja tavalise pastakaga ka ei saa kirjutada - parem käsi! Soome erakorralise meditsiini süsteem imeb lurinal, aga võib-olla on asi hoopis selles, et ma elan "väikelinnas". Suure hunniku valuvaigistite all oli suht naljakas olla - ma vist kogesin maailmarahu. Ja meesarst (noor) oli suht kena :D. See on lahe.

Ma panin JP-le oma msniga note'i taskusse. Huvitav, mis edasi saab. Reede oli lahe (kui sõrm välja arvata), JP-wise!

Ja nii muuseas istusime Soniaga (Marsh) mingi 6h Coffee House'is ja parandasime maailma. It was so cool:)! Nüüd ma ainult ei tea, kas peaks täna kuskile pidusse minema, või mitte. Juua eriti tark vist ei ole, eriti kui mul sellised toredad kanged valuvaigistid on peal... We shall see.

Nugadega pidu.

Nonii. Soomega olen nüüd jälle ära harjunud, koolirütm, mis surub väga tugevalt selga, on jälle sees ja matab hinge rohkem, kui kunagi varem. Ma sain näiteks eile teada, et mu historical investigation (uurimustöö, tere) tähtaeg on 6 nädala pärast ja ma pole veel ühtegi raamatut läbi lugeda jõudnud sel teemal. Ma teen nimelt selle metsavendadest. Aga õnneks ma nüüd sain juba 2 raamatut ja eks ma siis loen. Kunagi peab valmis ka kirjutama. Aga see selleks. Kool nagu kool ikka, mõne pisikese vürtsiga igapäevarutiinides, mis on äärmiselt positiivne.
Selle meie kooli vanade tantsude peoga on hullu sädistamist olnud viimastel päevadel. Ma ei teagi nagu, kas nüüd lõppkokkuvõttes minna, või mitte, kuna Emmi tuhnis mulle ühe mingi oma sõbra (kusjuures, suhteliselt kena välimusega isegi), kes oleks nõus mu paariline olema. Ma olen oma paari loomisega umbes pool aastat hiljaks jäänud, võrreldes "tavaliste" soomlastega. Nende jaoks on üldse kogu üritus hullult big deal... Ei mõista, minu jaoks on suhteliselt pohhui (ma ei saa ikka üle sellest, kui väga see sõna mulle meeldib)!

Mulle meeldivad võõrad inimesed. Eriti need, kellega pilgusõprus tekib. Isegi rohkem, kui pilgusõprus. See on nii hullult lahe, mis jaur ühe mu koolivennaga toimub, keda ma ei tunne ja me ei ole kunagi korralikult rääkinud. Ei midagi suurejoonelist, kuid piisavalt ärevust ja seda, et igapäevane hall ja sombune tunduks veidikenegi vikerkaarevärvilisem. JP.

This is all beyond random, seriously. But I love it. It's the little things that make the world! Hell yeah.

Tegelikult on elu ilus ja kõik on täpselt nii positiivne, kui positiivseks sa ise viitsid enda jaoks kõik mõelda. Tsill, noh! Ainuke asi, mis looduse poolt natuke õel on, on see, et tuleb igavene persetäis lund maha ühe ööpäevaga, siis järgmine päev on suur sula ja siis lükkab jälle palju miinuseid temperatuuriskaalale. Nii ei ole ilus teha, libedaks läheb ju!

Kui ma vaid natuke rohkem viitsiks...